i've rethought my position sir,
i'm not ready to accept this,
not ready to take on the responsibilities this brings
or to adhere to the consequenses I might have
my actions have become mired
and my sight has become clouded

i am blind,
a bat in a cave,
a mole above ground,
a child in love with his toy
never looking to see the danger ahead 

my broken wing healed,
only to fly too close to the sun
only to be captured in a net
put in a cage,
to be despised,
mocked
controlled

i'm dreaming of old times again
wandering the house i once knew like a stranger
ashamed and naked i tried to clothe you
we float like we're in space
but it's only the weightlessness of water
so i begin to drown, only to wake up
tangeled in my own bed sheets

you turned to me and saw my face,
you hid yourself from my sight, and ran
giving chase, i grab you with sobbing eyes,
why won't you look at me!
you cover your own so that i feel disgraced

have I become what tore you apart?

will I tear apart what has already begun?

thank you for the cure,
for the space you made
between my past and my present
for being my unexpected joy
my learning days have just begun

so I begin to pound the wedge into the crack
dividing the fetter from your foot
but not the one you think
when you look down again i'll be miles away
and you'll be happy again

just let me make it through this fire one more time

just let me praise you

sleep overtakes me once more,
and i'm saddened by my dreams,

because only when I'm awake
are you my lucid dream.